Random Rant.

I have spent countless of hours wasting precious time, doing nothing. Knowing too much of other peoples' business that's put out there on this cyber world, and I'm letting it take a toll on me. I need to focus, I need to find some sort of motivation to finish school. At this rate, I'm not going to transfer for another year. For the past year and a half, my heart was set to follow my dreams becoming a registered nurse. College life for me started off with heartbreak. Lacking motivation from the very start wasn't too great. But I finally kicked into gear, when I had 3 classes during a 6 week semester. I seriously had no life. Completely forgetting my very own birthday. And so once spring semester came, I had a serious case of "I don't give a fuck" & that kicked me straight up in the ass. It fckin hurt me. Took a long ass break during summer, while working at foreverfucking21. That job has been driving me insane. It gave me $$$, but it gave me this negative vibe when it comes to people. Started to think about my major, and how I want to change it so I wouldn't have to deal with people 24/7. So heck I'm going to change my major.

Anyways, I need to stop with this cyber whoring I dug myself into. No more spending countless of hours reading facebook status updates. Most of them are from people I barely talk to now a days anyways. Tumblr is worst for me. I find myself just scrolling, reblogging, and liking a post over and over and over again. HI MY NAME IS BERNADETTE, AND I HAVE A SOCIAL NETWORKING PROBLEM. I need help. Having someone to change my password for facebook, and tumblr won't do me any good. I need to fight this battle on my own. FUHH

Things to do:

1. FOCUS (don't get sidetracked by facebook/tumblr)
   
2. Study (every day for at least an hour)
   
3. Run (every morning, it's good for my body, mind, and soul)
   
4. Finalize bedroom (this is going to be hard, I have a problem... I have a hardass time letting things go.)
   
5. Reconnect with people, and not just saying "Hey, wassup?" over a text or a facebook message. But actually meet up and have a one-on-one conversation. Catching each other up with our chaotic lives.
   
6. Read up on the Gospel everyday and reflect on it.
7. Grow a backbone.