Random Rant.

I have spent countless of hours wasting precious time, doing nothing. Knowing too much of other peoples' business that's put out there on this cyber world, and I'm letting it take a toll on me. I need to focus, I need to find some sort of motivation to finish school. At this rate, I'm not going to transfer for another year. For the past year and a half, my heart was set to follow my dreams becoming a registered nurse. College life for me started off with heartbreak. Lacking motivation from the very start wasn't too great. But I finally kicked into gear, when I had 3 classes during a 6 week semester. I seriously had no life. Completely forgetting my very own birthday. And so once spring semester came, I had a serious case of "I don't give a fuck" & that kicked me straight up in the ass. It fckin hurt me. Took a long ass break during summer, while working at foreverfucking21. That job has been driving me insane. It gave me $$$, but it gave me this negative vibe when it comes to people. Started to think about my major, and how I want to change it so I wouldn't have to deal with people 24/7. So heck I'm going to change my major.

Anyways, I need to stop with this cyber whoring I dug myself into. No more spending countless of hours reading facebook status updates. Most of them are from people I barely talk to now a days anyways. Tumblr is worst for me. I find myself just scrolling, reblogging, and liking a post over and over and over again. HI MY NAME IS BERNADETTE, AND I HAVE A SOCIAL NETWORKING PROBLEM. I need help. Having someone to change my password for facebook, and tumblr won't do me any good. I need to fight this battle on my own. FUHH

Things to do:

1. FOCUS (don't get sidetracked by facebook/tumblr)
   
2. Study (every day for at least an hour)
   
3. Run (every morning, it's good for my body, mind, and soul)
   
4. Finalize bedroom (this is going to be hard, I have a problem... I have a hardass time letting things go.)
   
5. Reconnect with people, and not just saying "Hey, wassup?" over a text or a facebook message. But actually meet up and have a one-on-one conversation. Catching each other up with our chaotic lives.
   
6. Read up on the Gospel everyday and reflect on it.
7. Grow a backbone.
   

FEBRUARY

I'M LEGAL! :]
JANUARY:
Was filled with chamber events(laser ta, an no more ROP health Careers!18 birthdays. Pancake Breakfast.
FEBRUARY<3:
Went to Winter Formal. Limo&Partybus fun. Cerritos Say Cheese. Macaroni Grill.
-Sleepover @ Eric's
Diamond Ranch people. Lucille's Dinner. Morning workout w/ Jon & Kevin = i FAIL
-Flagstaff,Arizona <3
It was Unforgettable. Back of the bus fun. Crazy "that's what she said" moments. Take 6 Concert was EARGASMIC. Restroom breaks with John. Dirty talks w/ "baby making blanket". deep fried ice cream. Blackberts restaurant. Naked people. "MEOW". Chamber was the only ASIAN choir & SHORTEST xP
-Valentines Day
Spent it with Eric, Jon, and Kevin <3
-Presidents Day
Watched Valentines day w/ Malu, Mj, Joan, Cheryl, Darrell, Connie, Nick, Zack, Tiffany, & Daniel. Then ate at panera bread, chilled @ suzzane park, went to BP w/ aldrin & chris.
-JonWang&TiffanySuryakusuma Day
-help Dye both their hair's, dinner w/ them @ chickfila, mcd's, & L&L, late night walk&talk @ JonWangs
-Prelude to Spring Concert
It was short, boring. Last time wearing my funeral classical dresses. Chris, Aldrin, mj, & malu watched<3 But I felt like crap before performing, but got to eat out at chipotle&mcd's w/ thee boys.
-Last Week
I got rejected, went to smallsac for a jazz workshop, HE SAID YES <3, spent my late start mornings w/ aldrin and chris making breakfast together, went to Lucky Elephant Restaurant at san dimas, got my sadies superwoman outfitt, american appearal @ clermont, made up hours marshalls and ate all by myself at tarjay


That's all i can remember this month OH & Aldrin being locked out of his house xD

SLYM beach bonfire!

only had three hours of sleep the night before! due to the fact that i had to get up early for my registrations. the beach was fun THE WAVES WERE HUGE! you'd go knee high deep & you'lll get KO twas crazy! LEG CRAMPING STATION i got around five cramps on my LEFT leg that shizz hurts! but it didnt' stop me from going back in (: had a huge chain like this

BEFORE

DURING

AFTERthe waves (: imma miss this! bonfire&rosary were amazing! cant' wait to do it again!